Wondering... how are you?

...You are for me...

So faithful
So constant
So loving and so true
So powerful in all you do

You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to you

I know that you are for me
I know that you are for me
I know that you will never forsake me in my weaknesses
I know that you have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who you are


So patient
So gracious
So merciful and true
So wonderful in all you do

You fill me
You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to you


I know that you are for me
I know that you are for me
I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that you have come downEven if to write upon my heart
To remind me that
I know that you are for me
I know that you are for me
I know that you will never forsake me in my weakness
I know that you have come down
Even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who you are

God...

How I long to serve You...
To be used by You..
to be someone that You can work through..... >.<

but why it seems... i really cant do much..
cant really do the best for things You already put in my hand?
isnt it that You wouldnt give me things to do if I couldnt handle it?

God...
why i feel so useless so many times..
why i feel so tired too many times...
God...
I wanna be like Joshua or Gideon Lord..
that ones confident is in YOU
and You ALONE.......

You see the mighty man of God in them...
do You see a beautiful and wise woman in me?
God...
i wanna be closer to You..
wanna be loved by You..

indeed all that I have..
friends that i have been looking for and found em..
this wont fill my Heart ........
only You could satisfy
this longing in my heart...

Daddy... I need You..
need You to hold me..
to show me where I should go..
to whisper to me that I am Your best gal..
to hold me and say I am Your princess...

-needing You-

The Proposal

Hehehehe... abis nonton the proposal kemaren sama Jess, Tia, Ying, Ellen, and Kate... hahahaha SO so so so so funny =D hahahahaha... ketawanya dah sampe sakit perut......... Bagus BGT! hahaha Baru film yang bikin relax! hahaha.. klo nonton horor kan bikin makin tegang! =p

anyway................. its funny (not really but...) in the movie... it seems....... Its really easy to fall in love with someone. Andrew (Ryan Reynold..so cute and handsome ed- =p) used to HATEEEEE Margaret (Sandra Bullock) sooo much! and just within 3days he could fall in love with her... ??? humm.... so.. i guess falling in love with someone isnt that hard aye? when two people have a communication that are deeper than just "formal" communication... I guess falling in love isnt hard at all..........
make me wondering Why and how come....
and I guess.. it goes back to who create us and who are we destined to be......
Our creator is so beautiful, He has all the goodness that could ever be or even BEYOND our imagination...... and as we are created to His image... i guess it wouldnt be hard to fall in love with His creation... =)

When you are introduce to someone... The first impression is always the physical...
The more you know the person formally.... The more you know the character of the person whom He/ She would want people to see.........which usually "Tougher"
The more you know the person personally............. The more you will see the "real" character...
the softness... the brokenness... the strength... the weaknesses... the beauty within....


hmm.......... U are B e a u t i f u l GOD....

T.T

!@^%$#@%^$Y%!@$%....



wkwkwkwk..... the last few weeks is just undescribable!

Happy...sad.....tired...excited....angry...disapointment... grateful! duh klo bahasa indo nya mah udah kayak makan gado2.... semua sayur jadi satu...yang doyan yang gak doyan... diaduk semua!



Lets start with one.....



soooo.... GRATEFUL that He gave us a WHOLE week...(the week before that was just raining the whole lot of time) and yesterday.. on Sunday...the rain start pouring again.... So..it was just the right weather... right timing.... simply because my GOD's timing is P E R F E C T!





Thanks to Jaz too for helping us alot.. also...ko jamz....Cicil....and franklin... wont be able to finish the painting til today otherwise.... >.<



Its just great to have a God who knows what you need.... When i started to get so tired... He send Jaz pop out of nowhere to help.. hahahhaa... even though only one day.. he managed to help us finish undercoating almost the whole unit! hahahha thanks Jaz.... Man's strength are really different!



Talkin about Man's power...strength.... Man... hahaha.. dunno its that different until now. =p

How mighty You who create man =)

abis makan ngantuk.... >.<

kangen tau ga sih???? pengen ngobrol... pengen berbagi...
*sigh* is this how much i deserve?
when you asked me what happen.....
wanna tell u i deserve more than what it is now...
i really wish you would understand...
uughh.......... i wonder if God is just an excuse of something you are not willing to fight for?
I hope not........

*cry*

where are you? T.T

*sigh*.... its 5 o'clock in the afternoon...in the morning i complained about being so hungry..
and in the past few hours ive been complaining about have to go to work after work...
complain about not getting paid enough....... >.<

hiks hiks... so sad sometimes.. so tired....

but when i think about it....
we human ALWAYS... ALWAYS have something to complain about.
we complain almost about EVERYTHING...

so.... when i think about it deeper... its all about choices we have to made..
Which perspective we want to see when we see problems...

when I look at myself have to work so hard for things...
I should really be grateful that I still have job...(TWO JOBS!)
when I look at myself (I wanna say SOOOO but maybe NOT THAT MUCH) f.a.t
I should really thank God that I still have food to eat..
and opportunity to be healthy (as in..when i feel fat I should go exercise and thats healthy) =p

when I see that people getting paid so much more than I do...
maybe I have to learn to work my best still though not many people seems appreciate it.. as in...
I thank God.. that He is a God who knows what I have done... and I believe He wouldnt stand
still... There must be things that He wants me to learn in this company... =)

Baru jem 9 nih............. duhhh Laperrr... >.< udah minum Up n Go juga tetep aja laper..
dari tadi di bus udah cravingnya... Fooodddd........ pengennya yang crunchy yang asin... >.<

HUmmmm...............

sometimes i have the urge to go back to the past...
where our love was strong
where our love was simply perfect...
sometimes i feel like asking the world where it went wrong...
asking the reason of why all this happen to God...

hum...

but i know...
our love aint over...
i still love you the same..
no..not the same..
i love you even more now..
not with my love..but His love..
the way He loves me..now thats my source of Love...

darling....
it hurts i know..and i know you know it too..
and i know you know it hurts for me too..
when i feel so lonely... i know you will feel the same way too...
but when loneliness knocked on the door..
I can only pray that we will be strong...
keep on the right track and keep searching for His love...

what went wrong.. we know..
when the perfect love become so wrong...we know...
now that we fight it together..
i hope we can strive for this....

i l o v e y o u
i m i s s y o u
i w a n t t o b e w i t h y o u
m i s s h o l d i n g y o u
m i s s b e i n g i n y o u r a r m s

miss you so...... T.T

Hello......... ^^ i dunno whom i said hello to.. >.<

duh cape d... lately...it seems that everything seems so supportive for me to "sulk", complain and simply giving in and up!! People seems cant get enough of this.. (though they might not realise it or...not even mean it) but what they did is just hurting me.......

but U are so amazing God....U simply TRUST me e.n.o.u.g.h and BELIEVE me e.n.o.u.g.h moreover U are so [SECURE] that U let me be...U gave me so much time and space to think about what the world throws at me... U gave me all that I need...and W-A-I-T till I run to U...

You know that one day I can really see that the one that tries to kill and steal is NEVER EVER giving up to keep throwing rubbish at me, so that I run away further and further away from You...
but then when I realize and that I want to change...You always encourage me... theres always people popped out of nowhere and encourage me. (I believe its from You) Thank u God.

Im sorry if in my mind I ran "from" You not run "to" You...... that I will look all other ways before I run back to You... Im sorry that Im sooooo impatient...soooo unbelief.... sooo scared and sooo insecure... that i cant loose control.

God...sing to me... Romance me... and Love me... if he's the one from You... I believe You will made a way Lord... I cant see his heart.. I cant always believe his words..when his actions says otherwise... Father...protect me. I cant go through this alone....

My Love songs aint sweet unless You sing it for me.
My Love stories aint beautiful without You in it.
My Love is forever empty without Your presence.
My Love is forever missing without Your blessing.
My Love is nothing WITHOUT You.

A very old song...that i like so much...>.<
hope there will be one day that i could be that "someone"

..[l]O[n]G[i]N[g]..

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I finally found someone
That knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one
That makes me feel complete
It started over coffe
We strated out as friends
It's funny how from simple things
The best things begin

This time is different
And it's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it though
My favouite line was "Can I call you sometime"
It's all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting? I didn't mind
I apologise, baby that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
You know I love your hair Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear Isn't it too tight?
You're exceptional I can't wait for the rest of my life

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone
And whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun I finally found someone

*Brian Adams - Barbara Streisand*

another day passes by........
where are you.. how are you...
i dont know...
i miss u so.. i really wish that u do too...
but as minute passes by (yupp..thats how often i checked my phone to see if u message me..or a miscall from u) i dont think you do....

i just pray that you are doing great somewhere out there...
hope that you are on the way to become who you said you would be...

i don't exactly why my heart long for you desperately
why cant i let you go off my mind... i dont know..
i wish i know... i wish letting go of you can be as easy as u letting go of me...

i miss you....really do...... T.T

leaning.on.YOU

...d.i.s.c.o.u.r.a.g.e.d...

Tuhan tolong... im sorry... but this isnt right...

L.O.S.T @.@

Errhh... >.<
how i miss you..........................

Back at one - Brian Mcknight

It's undeniable that we should be together
It's unbelievable, how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know
If you just don't know how I feel
Then let me show you that now I'm for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal

Yeah

one, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, (girl) it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one(yeah)

It's so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about, hey
And undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would've made it very far
cause you know you got the keys to my heart

cause...

one, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, (girl) it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one(yeah)

Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time

one, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, (girl) it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one(yeah)

When the stage is bare tonight... There's no one else.. Just you and me...
When the curtain close behind...there's no pretense Im on my knees..

Oh God...... I miss you...
I know You are here with me no matter what..
I simply miss the feeling when I know you are near...

Im sorry Lord for the things ive done..
when i decide to love someone else more than You..
Your heart must be in pain.......

Oh.....I love You...
please come closer...
dont want to be far from You...

..........

I-M I S S-Y O U

Hello Hello... udah lama nigh gak ngeblog ^^

wakakaka... Banyak yang terjadi.. hehe
mau kasih liat nigh...foto sebelah.. keren ya?

hehe even its small.. ^^ look how romantic God is.. hehe

mungkin banyak kali yah yang tau.. But I LOVEEEE, hearts shape.. and this is what i found on the way home from Paddys today 04/04/2009 =)



keliatan gak sih itu gambar apa? hehe ini nih lebih close up nya yahhh...even gak perfect tapi who cant say no? hahaha maksa banget kah? =)

wakakaka... ^^ oh well ^^