God...

How I long to serve You...
To be used by You..
to be someone that You can work through..... >.<

but why it seems... i really cant do much..
cant really do the best for things You already put in my hand?
isnt it that You wouldnt give me things to do if I couldnt handle it?

God...
why i feel so useless so many times..
why i feel so tired too many times...
God...
I wanna be like Joshua or Gideon Lord..
that ones confident is in YOU
and You ALONE.......

You see the mighty man of God in them...
do You see a beautiful and wise woman in me?
God...
i wanna be closer to You..
wanna be loved by You..

indeed all that I have..
friends that i have been looking for and found em..
this wont fill my Heart ........
only You could satisfy
this longing in my heart...

Daddy... I need You..
need You to hold me..
to show me where I should go..
to whisper to me that I am Your best gal..
to hold me and say I am Your princess...

-needing You-

The Proposal

Hehehehe... abis nonton the proposal kemaren sama Jess, Tia, Ying, Ellen, and Kate... hahahaha SO so so so so funny =D hahahahaha... ketawanya dah sampe sakit perut......... Bagus BGT! hahaha Baru film yang bikin relax! hahaha.. klo nonton horor kan bikin makin tegang! =p

anyway................. its funny (not really but...) in the movie... it seems....... Its really easy to fall in love with someone. Andrew (Ryan Reynold..so cute and handsome ed- =p) used to HATEEEEE Margaret (Sandra Bullock) sooo much! and just within 3days he could fall in love with her... ??? humm.... so.. i guess falling in love with someone isnt that hard aye? when two people have a communication that are deeper than just "formal" communication... I guess falling in love isnt hard at all..........
make me wondering Why and how come....
and I guess.. it goes back to who create us and who are we destined to be......
Our creator is so beautiful, He has all the goodness that could ever be or even BEYOND our imagination...... and as we are created to His image... i guess it wouldnt be hard to fall in love with His creation... =)

When you are introduce to someone... The first impression is always the physical...
The more you know the person formally.... The more you know the character of the person whom He/ She would want people to see.........which usually "Tougher"
The more you know the person personally............. The more you will see the "real" character...
the softness... the brokenness... the strength... the weaknesses... the beauty within....


hmm.......... U are B e a u t i f u l GOD....