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hmm... just realized that ive been wasting so much time... looking for things in the wrong places..
and just realized that the consequences i have to pay seems to so large.. =(
so sad..

hmm.. what to do now? what to do now?

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just wanna break down and cry sometimes.. but usually that doesnt help much..
hmm..


can only cry out to You and finding the things i need in the right direction...
but whats in the future.. whats next.. im still clueless..
please help me somehow..? =(

T T


when everything had happened..
when i have no friend..
when trusts are broken..
when tears are shed..
when hope is lost...
when pain surrounds..
in these long hour of my sorrow..
when a laughter fails to comfort..
when my heart ache..
when confusion is all around me..
when i dont think i can go on...
when the darkness is my closest friend..

Lord.. i can only cling to You.. *cries out*

love this song to the max... =D


I'm so mad at you right now
That I can't think straight
And I should shut my mouth
So I don't let out the cruel things I say

Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But sometimes it takes an act of my will
And a walk in a park turns to uphill

But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay & love you

Love is just so beautiful
sometimes it takes work
And the ones you love
At times can leave you so hurt

Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But the picture of love some try to paint
It's a contrast to the real landscape
But I promise to give you my heart

I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose you, I choose you, yeahh
I choose youuI choose you everyday
I choose you

Some people think that love is just a feeling
So they fall out of love as quickly as they fell in
Some people think that love is just a game
But they the ones who always seem to end up getting played
Though everything around might change
One thing will still remain
I will choose to love you, yeahh

Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose youuuuu
I choose youu, heyy yeahh
I choose youu, whoooww
I choose you everyday
I choose you


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randomness..

David Choi lagunya enak juga yahh ternyata... tadi dengerin "That Girl" sama "By My Side"..
sama d'cinnamons.. "Ku yakin Cinta" juga enak..

duh di kantor tapi gak pengen kerja.. gimana yaa? XD

pengen cepet2 dapet kerjaan baru.. yahhh? yah Father?

belakangan ini... kata2.. "there's always Hope" selalu terngiang2...
God has something better...
Hope for the future...

aghh.. i do believe.. but plz help me o Lord... slap me in the face or something..
coz this heart always dragging... im running but always looking to the past..
so all i get is just .. jatuh2.. kesandung sana sini.. nabrak kanan kiri...
when will i reach my destiny if i keep doing so?

kalimat ini juga sering terngiang2... "Love... sometimes when the person you love reject your love... its not your fault... stop blaming urself for it.."
hmm... maybe its right...
but everytime i think that ive lost my _ _ a _ i just cant stop these tears to fall down..
owhh well.. since last sat prayer meeting...
ive decided.. ill let u go my _ _ a _...
i pray that u'll find what u're looking for..
ill be the 1st one to be happy to see you back on track with our Father...
ill try my best to leave everything behind and look forward for the future..
ill miss u a lot... but... yeah... sudahlah.... *sniffs*


ndaaaaa.................... thank u for being there.. ^^
im so happy that i could find you...
Ci.. and Ko.. juga... icha juga.. hahaha jadi malu perasaan sering ketangkep icha pas lagi 'netes'
hahhaa.. cici stella juga.. XD (walo ga bkalan baca blog ini...) well banyak sih yang gak bakalan baca.. tapi thank you yahh.. esp U God... what would i be without U.. Ur never ending mercies and grace... dont give up on me yet o Lord.. please dont... ill one day be that Great woman U created me to be..

for now.. i need to keep those (-)vity out of my mind..
coz... everytime i see them.. i cant help myself but to compare..
feel sad and down.. T.T
hikss..
errhh.. Semangat Julya Semangat! U are in the process of being the one God created U to be!


udah ah hari ini ya? hehehe..back to work.. err.. trying to work! =)

"Time To Grow" by Lemar

Last night I tried but I couldn't sleep
Thoughts of you were in my head
I was lonely and I needed you next to me
Life is harder since you left

I never meant to do you wrong
And now all is said and done
I hope you won't be gone too long... No


Where do I go
What do I do
I can't deny I still feel something
And girl, I wish you could say you feel the same
You've broken the bond
I gotta move on
But how do I end this lonely feeling?
You've gone, I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow

I try to speak, but my words never catch the air
Like you never knew I was there
Take me back to the days when you really cared
Can we make love re-appear?
I can't go on the roads too long

And now all is said and done
I can't go forward if my heart's still where i'm coming from

Crying time is over
I know I can't control her feelings
If she won't return, then I guess I'll be a man
and move on
Time to grow
And move on

Make life better than it was before
Time to grow and move on
Make love better than I did before

Though you've gone
And I'm here, alone
I guess it's time to grow


Owh I miss you so bear..... T.T